'An empty room can be so deafening
The silence makes you wanna scream
♥ Hey yo! This is Dorina here. Currently 19 years old this year. Birthday falls on 27 December 1991. Studying Business Administration course in College East. I treasure family & mates more than anything else. Music and Novels are my definite all time favourites. Always in the heart,In Loving Memories, Ku Witaya & Sia Chan Hong. ♥
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Thursday, December 28, 2006, 11:26 PM
i'm so happy now.my cousins suddenly pop-ed at my door step with gifts for my birthday which is yesterday.
okay , i'm freaking touched lah .
they bought me stuffs like death note soundtrack & the note book and pen .
its so nice of themmmmmmmm . fucking nice .
cousin ariel is damn fucking cute . she bought me ear sticks , hairband and tigger handphone straps . and she told me she scared my teacher catch my ear piercings and there goes my ear piercings . so for in case she bought me ear sticks from mini-bits.
awwww , how sweeeeeeeeet !
seriously touched lah .
xD
2:38 PM
i just keep myself cool & pretend nothing happened ;)
gracious enough?
i doubt so.
sigh , had a lonely birthday yesterday .
early morning went out to the hospital for check up .
the only thing i'm happy is i'm recovering well & i'm ready for school .
or perharps not ?
haha ! i have no idea i wanna go school anot =/
okay . my scar on the back is fucking ugly okay.
i just hope it will go away soon as i dont want to have a scar on the back of mine .
freaking fast , there goes my 2 month holiday .
one blink , its gone .
and next wednesday i gotta report for school .
i'm kinda confused now .
2 broken familes .
my family matters are getting more & more complicated .
i'm just torn lah .
when families are broken , the kids need the most concern .
that's all i can say .
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BK !
Tuesday, December 26, 2006, 9:20 PM
24 dec went to auntie lee lee's changi resort chalet .
i swear the moment i stepped into the chalet i feel the creeps .
effin' scary !
went there sit sit do nuttin .
as usual my maid served me with food . but all i cannot eat -.-
saw alot of my fav food x(
chit-chatted with my mom's friends . then went home around 12plus .
25 dec
its christmas !
i'm supposed to enjoy good food like Turkey and stuffs u guys eat when it's christmas .
but but but , i stayed at home the whole fucking day .
and and and , i only ate normal food like kway tiao soup .
effin' sian about it lahs . everyday eating the same food .
how i wish i can faster recover and go to school .
i seriously fucking miss school !
x(
today
sigh , another normal day for me .
i think i'm going nuts day by day .
cranky i mean , haha .
daily routine : wake up , eat , use com , watch teebe , slp .
effin' bored about my life now ZZZ .
my birthday !
27 dec
^^v
SCARS .
Sunday, December 24, 2006, 3:26 PM
ytd went to my aunt's place for bbq .
early christmas celebration mahs . went there and i was like a baby .
just sit and dunch move .
so my maid served me with food available and those i could eat .
i hate the times now .
cus whatever i loike , i cant eat .
whatever i loike to do always restricted by my mum .
was like effin' irritated seriously.
reached home around 1am .
was like darn tired .
my birthday is reaching in 2 days time and i aint excited about it .
cus there's no celebration , no cake .
as i cant eat luhs -.-
to the person who is fucking jealous of me : if you're that jealous of me , pls tell me straight in my face . why do u have to do effin' stupid acts behind my back .
you're already 15 . but your fucking mind and your brain is the age of a young kid .
pls change your mindset lah . if he's yours he will come to you . no point saying i snatch him away or whatever fuck words coming out of your fucking mouth . u wanna badmouth more about me to ' her ' , go ahead . i cant be bothered . let's just see who will win then ^^v
a thousand miles ;
early christmas celebration mahs . went there and i was like a baby .
just sit and dunch move .
so my maid served me with food available and those i could eat .
i hate the times now .
cus whatever i loike , i cant eat .
whatever i loike to do always restricted by my mum .
was like effin' irritated seriously.
reached home around 1am .
was like darn tired .
my birthday is reaching in 2 days time and i aint excited about it .
cus there's no celebration , no cake .
as i cant eat luhs -.-
to the person who is fucking jealous of me : if you're that jealous of me , pls tell me straight in my face . why do u have to do effin' stupid acts behind my back .
you're already 15 . but your fucking mind and your brain is the age of a young kid .
pls change your mindset lah . if he's yours he will come to you . no point saying i snatch him away or whatever fuck words coming out of your fucking mouth . u wanna badmouth more about me to ' her ' , go ahead . i cant be bothered . let's just see who will win then ^^v
a thousand miles ;
Friday, December 22, 2006, 8:34 PM
finally slowly recovering from my operation already . but i feel effin' restricted .
cant eat stuffs i loike , cant do what i loike .
effin' frustrated !
ytd went to shawn's birthday chalet .
i went there just to drink & eat -.-
mayb cus our age group bahs . zzz .
sigh . i dunch know why some pple are just so shameless .
reason being , already know u cant be the person in future .
den still wanna force and so those stupid things .
i cant believe you're like this -.-
4 more days to my bdae !
I MISS TIGER BEER ^^v
Sunday, December 17, 2006, 7:02 PM
FINALLY back at my sweetest home ! my life in the hospital is like shit compared to home .
how my life in hospital i dunch wanna say much
i just wanna thank those who have visited me in hospital
or those who have been by my side when i'm living in hell .
shermineBABE , connieJIE , mardianaJIE ,
huitingSISTER , samanthaNUER , kristinLAOGONG , fionaNUER ,
huiqiNUER , christopher , jinanERZI , sinlingNUER ,
witayaDIDI , jiahaoDIDI , delwinERZI , chanhongBUDDY ,
sockkuan , xinyiNUER ,
cheryl , andy , prisca . dorigo ,
yvette , briana , carella , mar , rachel ,
jia rong , my uncle & auntie , uncle steve ,
evelynMAMA , gerlyn , keslyn , lee lee auntie .
those names not listed is always on my heart de k
;)
kinda surprising connie bought me a tinkerbell cup .
its so nice of her can !
hehs . fwahlala ...
10 more days to my bdae !
:D
hehs .
yayness , my dad gonna buy me N73 on my bdae
^^v
but i cant go out for at least 2 months.
not even bringing my dog for a walk .
so absurd !
in addition , i have to skip school for one month -.-
sad , really wanted to go alexis's chalet . but i cant .
but never mind .
i know there's always next time .
hehs .
i really miss going out with jiemeis ! x(
sigh , my family stuffs are getting complicated .
10 more days to my bdae !
:D
Monday, December 11, 2006, 12:22 AM
tml going to hospital le .then tuesday operation .
sigh , i'm still effin' scared now.
words cant explain how i feel now .
but i'm gonna miss alot alot of pple .
( its not going in order )
- shermineBABE , deborahSISTER , huitingSISTER , joanneSISTER , leonardDADDY , guoenKOR , joanneMEI , waikitDADDY , sinlingNUER , jinanERZI , huiqiMEI , huihuiNUER , samanthaNUER , fionaNUER , fionaJIE , connieSISTER , mardianaSISTER , sweeyongBUDDY , kwokkinBUDDY , priscaDASAO , Dorigo(my blood brother) , xiuzhen ,
huifang , darrion , briana , carella , andy , xueting , mar , christopherBUDDY ,
cheryl , weishanMUMMY , johanBUDDY , kelvinBUDDY ,
daowen , daohan ,chuanzong , kaixiangDADDY , sera , angieDARLING , kingstonKOR ,
kristinLAOGONG(precious for life) , xiaohuiMUMMY , estherMUMMY , peiswenNUER , fiqahSYG , sockyuanDARLING , evonSISTER(for life) , winnieMEI , sandraPRETTY . ( there's more i guess , but all in my heart )
^^v
in life , when u gain something , u will lose something .
i lost something i always wish to cling on .
sighhhhhh .
gonna live in hell for more than 1 week .
its effin' sickening !
i miss my lil dog ,
blackie
:D
Friday, December 08, 2006, 4:19 PM
watched Cinderella yesterday with Fiona & Samantha nuer . and Huiqi mei mei .hehs . the movie is like so damn violent loe can !
a plastic surgeon which is the victim's mum , went around cutting out pple's faces .
eeyer , the thought of it .. can make me freak out . zzz .
lucky din waste our 8 bucks . ^^v
hehs . had so much fun with them .
shared cigs ytd . smoked 2 sticks ^^v
felt so much better :D
i talked alot ytd . alot of my operation stuffs to them .. they damn shocked & freaked out .
so how am i not to be afraid ?
everything i just keep quiet .
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh .
but never mind , just in time ..
christopher sent me something on msn .
1 Peter 5:7
hehs . thanks ! i will rmb it :D
yayness . my dad suddenly bought me another adidas watch last sunday .
and its real beautiful to ME
:D
i'm super happy can .
hehs .
i'm going to get my new fone after my operation and stuffs .
^^v
sighhhh .
many many things i nid to talk .
nid to confide
who is always there for me ?
=(
She's Feebee .
aint she CUTE ?
hahas x)
Tuesday, December 05, 2006, 11:04 PM
sigh . i have no idea what to blog about .cus angie darling & fiona nuer ask me to update ,
if not i'm really lazy to update =/
just recently at Sense , i saw a dress which caught my eye .. but it cost $60 plus and i was like '' so ex sio '' that kind of reaction . i asked my mother to help me buy first den next time return her money . she was like .. dont wanna help me buy loe . i really hope i can get the money =(
sigh .
just today i went for my pre-operation blood test .
at first i wasnt scared until i saw the needle . =/
haha .when the nurse first drew my blood , i wasnt that scared .
she need to draw 4 tubes of my blood . but ... when she drew my blood till the 3rd tube , i FAINTED ! =/
i was really surprised when my parents told me i fainted previously =/
haha . mayb i was just to scared for it bahs .hehs .
so after that the doctor slowly explained to me what they are doing when i'm sleeping =/
they dunch know said what wanna cut open my ribcage first , den push aside my lungs & put the 2 long titanium screws into my body . listened to this , i broke down and cried infront of the doctor . i wasnt sure if i'm able to come out of the operation room alive . that's why .
i'm really terrified now even thou my parents are consoling me or whatever .
i'm just SCARED . plain scared =(
the doctor told me that i can make it if i have faith in myself .
sigh , i have no idea what i'm doing now then ..
he told me that 100% makes me well .
but 50% comes from the doctor and the medicines &
50% comes from myself whether i can walk in future anot .
again , i broke down & cried .
i dont noe why .
i just cried till i calmed down .
he told me i have to be brave cus other kids who have this same operation as me was only 10-12 yrs old .
i'm trying to be brave now .
not to cry or think about it .
sigh . wont be updating from monday onwards ZZZ.
miss u peeps .
*gone to somewhere i should belong*